Though she assured her family she would be fine.
Not a single day passed without torment in her soul,
not a single sigh relieved the hunting thoughts of despair caged in her mind.
If curses could be harnessed she would have channeled it to that night,
that solitary sour night,
a night that her bliss was bastardized by a beast who left her with a bastard.
Could there be a stronger word than “I hate you”,
she wished to use it on the one who twisted her happy heart and adorned it’s edges with thorns wrapped in thoughts.
Her Dad ironically took side with him who he knew not,
mum sided him with her silence.
Promiscuity they said found shape in their child.
She looked into my eyes like a child trying to count the stars of the sky and said to me, “Noble Nuel, through the eyes of this innocent child of mine, produced from his carnal desire I see the irrational monster, whose manhood is the most active part of him, more active than his brain.
Please tell me,
Is emotion stronger than reasoning?
Is lust more consuming than being human?
Is bad long termed than good?
That one night when memories created, can never be erased,
he was poised to have his way, even if he would have had me chased.
He neglected reason, gave in to emotion,
lost in his lust that made him feel less human, set in motion.
He climbed up the barriers of my pleas, cries, and poised chastity just to Soil my virgin land for the pleasure of few minutes.
In minutes he was drenched in sweat, but I almost drowned in my tears.
My pleas metamorphosed to disgust.
The fury of my eyes was mixed with rage and shame.”
But somehow, three years down that line, she realised forgiveness is meant to be given, not as a bid to get even,
but to do, even for unreasonable reason,
and simply, unforgettably forgive to be forgiven,
for each one of us is at our creator’s mercy,
both the righteous and those that are messy.
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